That little thing called loyalty

Truth is, I would rather hurt myself then hurt someone else.

Ah, So trapped!

LOCATION: Rocky Mountains, British Columbia, Canada

I have been feeing trapped lately, I love Canada but I am also ready to move on..there is that little problem that I am a bad saver..I live a comfortable life..but if I want to just pack up and leave..I kind of can't. That has to change I know, I find that when I a ready to leave, I can become an awesome saver..But that is why I have that trapped feeling now, I am ready to leave, but now I need to save, not to mention the fact that I still am kind of living to please others and not doing what I truly want, oh man, I cannot explain the thoughts going though my head right now, so much stuff that I want to do, things to see, places to go..people to meet. I can completly relate to the Jackson Browne song Running on Empty right now..its not about working your butt off and being tired, it is about travel and moving though life, doing so much yet still feeling like there is so much more to acheive.

5 ways to freak out your new house mates

LOCATION: Rocky Mountains, British Columbia, Canada

I am not the most normal person, I start out very quiet but its not long before people think im a total nutcase..I wonder why?

Presenting my Top 5 ways to freak out new housemates..tried and tested by yours truly :D (I wonder why they never invite me out...?)

Stalk them in the supermarket and try to pick their pocket

Reaction = “What the hell?...Chani?”

Stand over them as they sleep, as soon as they wake up show them something weird you are excited about, like a double stalked mushroom!

Reaction = “Huh, oh that's good..that was creepy” (later that night house mates were talking about it)

When talking about what you might do for the night say, “ah man I get so bored, sometimes I just go home and cut my wrists..”

Reaction = blank stare.. “I am kidding..” I say. House mate wide eyed “Why the hell would you say something like that!?”

If for any reason they have a box, in my case house mate had bought some furniture from Ikea, jump in it and ask them to push you around as if its a boat.

Reaction = awkward laugh from all house mates “I think you have been spending too much time with the bear”

Come home super excited and talking non stop about something you just bought from the supermarket (I used reduced sugar chocolate milk) hold it up blocking their view of the TV and talk about it as if you are an ad.

Reaction = “Are you sure that's reduced sugar?” .. More weird stares

So there you have it, try some of these tonight and you will be making friends in no time!!!

What a difference the sun makes.

LOCATION: Rocky Mountains, British Columbia, Canada.

Ah, today I write this blog whilst sitting outside, its awesome. Its late in the evening and the ice hockey final is on. The Vancouver Canucks are in against Boston Bruins, so of course all the good Canadians are glued to their T. Vs right now, I'm sitting outside enjoying the warm weather that is finally here. As an Australian I think I can be excused from the festivities, it is no AFL game. 

From where I sit I have an almost 360 degree view of the snow capped mountains, it has been a bit slow to melt this year, but its happening. It looks absolutely amazing with the sun beginning to set on them casting a nice mix of shadow and light. Would get a photo but I still haven't found my adaptor to charge my Aussie battery in Canada.

Today after a long walk in the sun I finally found a running route I liked, I don't like running on flat ground, I like hills and uneven surfaces and what I had been running on was just too flat with only a little uphill and it really did not get me in the running mood. I stumbled upon another trail, so now, connecting the new one and the one I already had, it is a brilliant moderate 50 minute run. Perfect for days when I want to get my heart rate up but not do it tough. So my 2 week lapse of when I had to leave my running partner behind in Calgary and only managing to get out a handful of times is over, I have found my passion to run again, and it feels great, my mind is so clear and satisfied now I have done a great run on a great trail in GREAT weather.  Warrior Dash here I come!

Ch ch ch Changes

LOCATION: Rocky Mountains, British Columbia, Canada

I find it very interesting to read back on past blogs, little things I write in my diary (one of the many diaries I start and never finish) or even finding little things scribbled on bits of paper, sometimes I can't even remember why I wanted to remember a particular thing.

Sometimes I will be in straight out denial, that even though its written on paper by my own sober hand "There is no way I ever liked that boy!" and the paper gets screwed up and tossed to the trash.

For some reason I have an obsession with writing down the first things I ate drank and saw,for the new year or after a birthday, things that other people may find boring but for me, I wish I had done it more often.

In 20 years time will I still remember I liked a certain thing? How much will things have changed? We forget the little things everyday, the little things that may make us really happy even for a few minutes of our lives. So I think we should all take the time to write down the little things. Fav song of the moment, movie you just saw, what your fav meal is, who your "in love with", the friends you have now and why they are your friends and see how it changes over the years. I think the friends one will be really interesting.

The Self and Doubt

LOCATION: Rocky Mountains, British Columbia, Canada.

Ah, Its that feeling again, you know the one, that feeling of self doubt. Have you ever wanted something so bad, that when you do get it, your first moments are jubilation but then comes that feeling?

You put on a brave face and keep smiling but deep down, you are constantly worrying and over thinking things.

I wanted a job so bad, I got it. Yay Me! But now every second I feel like something is going to happen and it will get taken away from me, I feel as though I don't deserve it or that I'm going to disappoint, maybe I was hired because they thought I was something; then I come along and they are like, What was I thinking??

I'm constantly over thinking things through at work, I may think of doing something or saying something, then I think, maybe I shouldn't then it turns out I should have. Its a constant sick feeling.

I know I will get over the feeling and settle into things, but for now, while that feeling is here I guess I shall just ride the waves and soon I will forget I ever felt this way. My job is amazing and challenging and I feel so honored to be apart of it.

On a brighter note, fllowing up from last post, I did eat breakfast after dinner, I was hoping it would give me that tired feeling, maybe my brain would associate my eating breakfast in general with trying to eat breakfast first thing in the morning when all you want to do is go back to bed... Didn't work, maybe I should try to eat something more boring then "Cheerios"( this is my summer breakfast as Canada doesn't have weet-bix.... NO WEET-A-BIX is not the same, don't even say it!)

Night xx

Dreaming of Breakfast

LOCATION: Rocky Mountains, British Columbia, Canada

Currently, I can't sleep, I have been dead tired since I got home from work..yes work YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW GOOD IT FEELS TO WRITE THAT.. I have been craving to really start work and today I did a pretty full day of it, my legs are so tired, and I'm sunburnt (sorry Mum) But to have done a full day doing stuff I love is AWESOME.

Blame Canada insisting it stay as light as midday till near midnight, but I can't sleep, and I'm craving breakfast. But one must sleep to have breakfast. Or do I? Would it be such a bad thing to eat breakfast now..after dinner? I guess its something that has been put into my brain since childhood that breakfast is for morning times. Hmm, I'm an adult I think I'm going to snack on some breakfast, for me, this thought is incredibly exciting and as a child a little scoldable, I don't think my housies are going to scold me for it :D

I really should learn to sleep.

Procrastination

LOCATION: Rocky Mountains, British Columbia, Canada

He he,
So I'm working my way up to go for a run, I will go, eventually anywho, thought I might catch you guys up on some things. Im in Canada YAY. Since I started this blog in 2009 (When I was living in New Zealand) I have since moved on to Canada. So I will hopefully start writing some of my adventures down, (dont hold your breath, it could be months between posts and who knows what country I will be in) anyways, forgot where I was going with that. So yeah Im from Australia, lived in New Zealand, have done a bit of traveling in USA and Now have been living in Canada for over a year. I plan on doing lots more travel in the future and I may even document it, sometimes. yeah okay Bye for now, going to cook some food..oh yeah and go for a run..ment to be doing this race thingy. OH and I start work tomorrow!!!!!!!

Boredom and the Seamonkey

LOCATION: Rocky Mountains, British Columbia, Canada

Why is it that the more bored I am, the less proactive I will be? I have not worked for over a month now, not because I am a jobless bum, but because I took a chance at getting a job I really wanted..and it worked :D but now I just have to wait for the job to start. So I'm sitting in my room, in a town where I have ZERO friends, bored out of my mind, mindlessly watching movies and checking face book every 5 minutes. Why don't I go for a run or long walk...Cant be bothered. So silly I know.

I'm like that all the time, the more I have to do the more I can fit in, I could work 3 am to 6 pm on a dairy farm and still go for a run, or go do something. I worked 2 jobs on a ski hill and still found time to drink my savings, board and get into trouble. But no, Give an active girl nothing to do, and she will do ....nothing. Must say my room is pretty clean..that's a rare thing. Gah why do I do that!!? I know I will be kicking myself when I do start work and wish I was fitter, especially when I see all the hot chicks around with their tans and fit legs and the guys hanging off them, HA who am I kidding no one is hotter then me :D :D okay.. so yeah.

I'm very bored, and all you people who dream of doing.. you know the world travel thing I'm doing.... are screaming at your computer screens, saying HOW CAN YOU BE BORED OVERSEAS. well, because you can. Just because you are in another country doesn't make your life perfect. But I must say It is a freaking good life. Being able to be bored in another country seems to be more romantic then being bored in your home town. Most of the time.

Digital Woes

LOCATION: Rocky Mountains, British Columbia, Canada

So I have just been going through all the photos on my laptop, The amount of photos I have compiled in the last 3 years is..Ridiculous; Over 7000 photos I have managed to collect, what happened to the ease of the film camera, where films were ...I cant even remember the cost and every photo you took (if you cared about budget) was carefully thought about? That way in a year the average photographer would have around 50 to 100 photos, not thousands and they could instantly be put into an album..Not now, I haven't spent money on my camera in years. I point, shoot and upload to my computer and start again. That's how I now have 55 gig taken up by crap.

I bought an external drive to put it all on. I m currently trying to go through it all, because half the time I don't even name the photos, and seeing I have the attention span of a goldfish, I usually name about 10 photos and get distracted by something like the pattern on my roof, so I have no idea the locations anymore

Where do I start with the sorting? Some pictures I have taken like 6 of the one thing, just slightly different angles and since I have inherited part of my parents hoarding gene, sometimes no matter how ridiculous the photo..I think,maybe I took it for a reason and I just cant see it yet, o it gets put into yet another folder named “sort” or sometimes I get lazy and just name it “hsfjshkfh”. Gosh Darn, this is going to be a looong process.