What a difference the sun makes.

LOCATION: Rocky Mountains, British Columbia, Canada.

Ah, today I write this blog whilst sitting outside, its awesome. Its late in the evening and the ice hockey final is on. The Vancouver Canucks are in against Boston Bruins, so of course all the good Canadians are glued to their T. Vs right now, I'm sitting outside enjoying the warm weather that is finally here. As an Australian I think I can be excused from the festivities, it is no AFL game. 

From where I sit I have an almost 360 degree view of the snow capped mountains, it has been a bit slow to melt this year, but its happening. It looks absolutely amazing with the sun beginning to set on them casting a nice mix of shadow and light. Would get a photo but I still haven't found my adaptor to charge my Aussie battery in Canada.

Today after a long walk in the sun I finally found a running route I liked, I don't like running on flat ground, I like hills and uneven surfaces and what I had been running on was just too flat with only a little uphill and it really did not get me in the running mood. I stumbled upon another trail, so now, connecting the new one and the one I already had, it is a brilliant moderate 50 minute run. Perfect for days when I want to get my heart rate up but not do it tough. So my 2 week lapse of when I had to leave my running partner behind in Calgary and only managing to get out a handful of times is over, I have found my passion to run again, and it feels great, my mind is so clear and satisfied now I have done a great run on a great trail in GREAT weather.  Warrior Dash here I come!

Ch ch ch Changes

LOCATION: Rocky Mountains, British Columbia, Canada

I find it very interesting to read back on past blogs, little things I write in my diary (one of the many diaries I start and never finish) or even finding little things scribbled on bits of paper, sometimes I can't even remember why I wanted to remember a particular thing.

Sometimes I will be in straight out denial, that even though its written on paper by my own sober hand "There is no way I ever liked that boy!" and the paper gets screwed up and tossed to the trash.

For some reason I have an obsession with writing down the first things I ate drank and saw,for the new year or after a birthday, things that other people may find boring but for me, I wish I had done it more often.

In 20 years time will I still remember I liked a certain thing? How much will things have changed? We forget the little things everyday, the little things that may make us really happy even for a few minutes of our lives. So I think we should all take the time to write down the little things. Fav song of the moment, movie you just saw, what your fav meal is, who your "in love with", the friends you have now and why they are your friends and see how it changes over the years. I think the friends one will be really interesting.

The Self and Doubt

LOCATION: Rocky Mountains, British Columbia, Canada.

Ah, Its that feeling again, you know the one, that feeling of self doubt. Have you ever wanted something so bad, that when you do get it, your first moments are jubilation but then comes that feeling?

You put on a brave face and keep smiling but deep down, you are constantly worrying and over thinking things.

I wanted a job so bad, I got it. Yay Me! But now every second I feel like something is going to happen and it will get taken away from me, I feel as though I don't deserve it or that I'm going to disappoint, maybe I was hired because they thought I was something; then I come along and they are like, What was I thinking??

I'm constantly over thinking things through at work, I may think of doing something or saying something, then I think, maybe I shouldn't then it turns out I should have. Its a constant sick feeling.

I know I will get over the feeling and settle into things, but for now, while that feeling is here I guess I shall just ride the waves and soon I will forget I ever felt this way. My job is amazing and challenging and I feel so honored to be apart of it.

On a brighter note, fllowing up from last post, I did eat breakfast after dinner, I was hoping it would give me that tired feeling, maybe my brain would associate my eating breakfast in general with trying to eat breakfast first thing in the morning when all you want to do is go back to bed... Didn't work, maybe I should try to eat something more boring then "Cheerios"( this is my summer breakfast as Canada doesn't have weet-bix.... NO WEET-A-BIX is not the same, don't even say it!)

Night xx